Monday, December 17, 2007

Dreams

Saturday night I had the strangest dream....
I'm working on figuring out what it means-though I have some vague idea.
It starts off as one of those familiar dreams
you know the kind when while you're dreaming you actually recognize and feel like you've been there before-
you know what's going on because you've been there before-or at least you can sense that.
My dream begins with me and one of my dearest guy friends back in Ohio
he is driving and I'm the passenger...and all I can remember is that we are driving near large trees...and the only image I have is of him yelling "Oh SHIT!" as if we're about to hit something. And then as soon as I remember this I have another memory....we are both sitting in the same car slammed up against a tree and he says "we've been out like this for 16 hours." And then that's it....in the dream I keep playing through these things over and over again trying to figure out what has happened to him and then what has happened to me. I'm then surrounded by groups of people in a store that seems very familiar....I tell them what has happened and they tell me that I've died and that I'm now in my next life. I was extremely overwhelmed in my dream with pain and with saddness....primarily because I didn't know what happened to my friend and more so I was frustrated with the fact that I could never speak to those people I loved again--they had disappeared--my entire life as I knew it had disappeared and yet I was still standing there and was being forced to let go of it and start over. I continued to be frantic in the dream-just so unsure of what I wanted to do with my life and just feeling lost and being unable to deal with the reality that I had died and had no time to say goodbye or really think about it.
Freaky?

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