An Old One

Many months old...re read it today...interesting how short in time things change:


seven years...
a long time-
probably too long I suppose.
fresh out of high school
stars in my eyes...
I sit in singers diction class
cute tall girl sitting in front of me
"who's your favorite musical theatre singer?"
"elaine paige...u?"
"Bernadette Peters"
karaoke
kamikozies...
everything seemed dream like and surreal-
I'm on my own.
shy girl meeting for the first time outside the choir room...
"you're in freshman chamber choir too?"
I can't believe we made it...
the smoking wall-batcheldor---
are you gay or bi?
friendships I will never forget.
Walking to parties....
movies in the dorm rooms....
eating at the dial...
weekends on the first floor
parties on the third.
exam weeks-never more fun than that first year.
strawberry daquiries.
term papers-
notes-
classes-
tears-
Laughter....
summer visits...sleeping together on the floor...
outdoor parties...
Sept. 11-always a vivid memory-
fear stricken
walking on slippery elm...
had sex that night
someting that seemed to relieve the pain.
Months of voice lessons...
more classes...
working in the office...
theatre shows...
Berlin to Broadway-still my all time favorite.
Hickies, parties, dances, tantrums....
21st b-day parties...
heart breaks
heart aches...
bretz.
saying goodbye to friends-
graduating....
continuing...
new life...
meeting new people...
Doc-a constant in my life here.
Europe-my constant dream forever with me...
long walks in Urbania late at night
these will forever get me through.
nights of being high...on life and on...well...
recitals
driving and listening to tons of music
spring break
six feet under & art museum.
These are all a part of me...
memories cannot be posted to their fullest
not enough room.
I'm grateful for these memories
seven very good years-
a place to call home.
Forever lingering in my heart--
writing now as I won't be able to the rest of the week-
too much raw emotion...
speak from the heart.
7 years..
I still love Bernadette Peters.
I will always look back at this chapter in my life and smile....
thank you all for your wonderful messages
your understanding blows me away.

"stop worrying where you're going...move on..."

Life doesn't end...this is never a real good-bye..
things change...
but time is constant...
connections will be forever...
we are all interwoven together in some strange but wonderful way.

Until later I send peace and love
send the same back is all I ask.

Here's to the next chapter....And to the ladies who lunch, aren't they a gas? ;-)

All my love,
Justin