Life...

I flip on NY1 news last night immediately when I get home
I brush through my things as I prepare to go to Brooklyn for the night.
I'm curious like everyone else...Heath Ledger, dead?
It's like one of those extremely random moments you just can't believe.
I am saddened like everyone else.
A girl however was interviewed
she was smiling the entire time...
almost laughing
because she was standing in front of his SoHo apartment.
As she explained that she and her friends were visiting Perezhilton all day
calling places and just trying to figure things out
she smiled
and then made it seem like a spectacle to go to his apartment
she was thrilled beyond words to be standing in front of the hot dead actor's apartment.
This disturbed me.
Why are you smiling?
Why are you laughing?
Why are you taking advantage of this moment?
Someone just died.
A person.
A real live person.
It's not the movies.
The market is crashing...
depression around the bend?
A new revolution
exciting times?
Sometimes
interesting
while the world falls apart
changes constantly
I fall deeper in love
surrounded by good feelings
I am able to smile
and forget about the world
.....