isn't it funny?

it's funny
many months after performing an intense cycle
the words have come back to me
"come back in tears...oh memory...hope...love of finished years..."
"you ate an apple...and I ate a pear..."
"there was so much to love...I could not love it all...some things I overlooked"
"some I could not find........"
I'm finding them
it's funny how that happens.
Today was one of those me days
a day of reflection
a day of calm
a day of perspective.
I realized a lot
funny
how we move on quicker than we plan
when we let go
things happen.
Syncronicity.
The laws of attraction.
I smile at the thought now
of relief.
You are here always
always part of me
regardless
this makes me smile.
Watching the movie last night...
I thought of you as I cried.
"Read this and I will come back to you..."
this is truth.
my loss is changing
realizing it's no longer a loss.
I have the strength
strength to move on
move through
look back
smile.
Trips to the airport late
conversations play back in my head-
wishing I could grasp again your reality.
Now is preparation
years from now I will say
"you taught me so much..."
those words so powerful
"what did I teach you?"
"About concentration...you meant to tell me to be where I was when I was there...not somewhere in the past or future. I wanted you to love me...I thought the world could be perfect--I was wrong..."
"I am sure that I loved you"
"I'm sure you did too..."
Conclusion and completion.
Each day is better.
For now I'm in that dream
I am done with the first song in the set
now halfway through the second
perhaps the third will happen soon
perhaps never.
What I have created has turned on me
no longer will these creations manifest.
Reality is the name of the game.
"what's reality"
"IT just is," I say with a grin.
You laugh...
you toss it down those wooden steps
I open my door
we smile
jump into bed
the middle of the night I awake
to your arms of love surrounding me-
the one time both of us are free
free to do this.
I feel you beside me and I smile
safety.
Waking to espresso and cereal-
soon enough.
The world where a minute without you seemed crazy
this has changed-
I go to my dreams
counting my blessings...
you are at the top.
I will see you there
again tonight--you know when I'm there
tonight I need your shoulder
your arms
come back--
in dreams.