Day 758349839050

Ok just as a general getting things out there...this is what has been such a stress:
We found an apartment over a month ago in the city. We went through a broker-one recommended to us by good friends. The apartment was perfect in every way in terms of space, cost, location, and all of that. We were up front in saying we needed something SOON as we were both staying with friends. We were shown a wonderful three bedroom apartment that was being renovated-meaning here in the city basically gutted from the floors to the walls and made into a brand new space. It's in a pretty pre-war building and we were told that the renovation would finish within three weeks but our official lease start would be December 1. Ok...a week goes by and no news. Another week goes by...no news once again. Finally we have to leave our friends who were gracious enough to house us for over a month so we're gettin nervous. Both of us find another place to live while in the meantime the broker continues to tell us different information ie; "the apartment will be ready by Friday..." then "oh it should be this Saturday..." and then "well they just have to finish the floors so it should be by Wednsday for sure...." and finally..."I was told I would be the first to know when it will be done." Period-end of sentence-blah! Now I understand that this isn't necessarily the brokers fault...the landlord's perhaps? Who knows. All I know is that we have had numerous unanswered phone calls when we have left messages saying..."HELLO WE NEED TO KNOW A DATE NOW FOR SURE..." all the while they are just thinking all is ok and as long as it's done by Dec. 1 we're good. When you are looking for a temporary home three days seems like a LONG fucking time!! Right? Right. So I go to Massachusettes on Wed. and get the news that the fucking apartment will not be available after Thanksgiving after all! Are you KIDDING ME?!? I've rented a studio on the upper west side for a few days...assuming that the last date they told us which would be tomorrow we would be moving in.....as of the writing of this I haven't heard ANYTHING...and there goes more money on this fucking little studio/hotel that I'm staying at. And on top of that major stress I'm dealing with just kind of jumping into a show here in NYC and dealing with the rehearsal schedule (which thank God for otherwise I may go nuts)....but memorizing that and learning everything.....continuing to love and get used to my new day job.....and learn the damn city because it seems like every week I'm located in a new part of the city......ALL while living out of one big suitcase and with my lap top. Sometimes I just want to stand out on the street and scream! hahaha
BUT regardless of all of that...................
I'm still smiling and doing the best I can considering the circumstances. This is giving me a thicker skin which is much needed! But oh did I ever consider hopping off the bus the other night when we stopped at the Holyoke Mall in Massachusettes ....I wanted to so bad...and call Justin and say "Well I'm staying for good...fuck everything else." HA! But I didn't.
Ok...so if I seem punchy or things are bit off lately--this would be why!!!!! I'm like a turtle who has no shell right now.
XO
Justin