Sea Water

Tonight I can't help but think of you...
me watching you as you fall asleep
the soft comforter rests lightly on you
the large pillows underneath your head
your bedside lamp is still lit
mine is out.
I hesitate to reach over you to turn it off
not wanting to wake you.
"I'm in London tomorrow"
this was your last phrase.
You continue to drift peacefully
My mind roams through the house
four floors we have created
the sea is near
the dog is sleeping in front of the fridge
as always.
The breeze comes through the window
fall is here.
I still smell the sea
hearing the birds screaming.
I view the photo books of my mind
past lovers
out of touch friends
experiences
small apartments
penny pinching
searching
and dreaming.
I got out of the car tonight from the airport
you were in the kitchen
I stared at you
-perfection.
I pet the dog slowly...
I turn the corner into the office
no mail?
nothing seems to be happening in the world.
I walk into the room
a wall full of signed posters
memorabillia
books
scores
a grand piano.
photos in front of me.
I light some candles
pull out a lemon drop from the jar atop the piano
I effortlessly sing-
yes it's still there
three weeks worth of art
I'm tired.
You make a nice dinner
Unable to stop staring at you I laugh
my awkward laugh.
A long bath awaits
you join me
we make love all night
music of our choice this time.
now I sit here
my life?
yes.
This is ours
our experience
two souls
brought together through time.
I see it clearly:
the house, the car, the dog, the piano, the pictures, the yard
I can even smell the sea air.
Unable to see you now
I stop searching.
The dream continues to grow
a picture here a picture there
a piece of furniture one day
a dish the next.
Building from a new foundation.
I will remember this
when I sit on that bed
you asleep
I ponder
I will always remember
very clearly-
this moment.