An overwhelming day

There is such a flux of energy in this city. I'm beginning to settle into it more and more each day. Days like today drive me nuts and seriously make me want to pull my hair out. Mandy and I went to a broker today (in the city this is someone who acts basically as a real estate agent and finds you an apartment). We decided this would be best because we have our hearts set on living in Astoria-which we love for many reasons. Primarily everything you could need is in this little burrough...it's less expensive than Manhattan, and it's a VERY quick subway ride into midtown manhattan. We also wanted to go through a broker because the prospect of not doing so has just appeared glim over the past few days and we also are about to be engulfed 100% in work for a while (as I start a kick ass day job tomorrow).
Needless to say we love the brokers and we enjoyed our day but the flux of this and that and all of the variables is exhausting. We found an apartment that we really liked...I mean this will be perfect. It's a three bedroom (we have someone else coming too) and it's in the middle of renovation which means we get all new stuff...PLUS it's a kick ass price that we totally can do. But of course the money needed to be shelled out initially to get in is a huge amount. So that is stressful in itself...and the apartment if we get it may not be available for another 2-3 weeks--which is stressful too because we feel bad continuing to stay with our amazing friends. So as we continue to wait to see if this will all pull through...I'm reminded that New York City constantly forces you to take ONE MOMENT AT A TIME...ONE DAY AT A TIME...and to ALWAYS keep perspection and stay in motion. By perspective I have to continually remind myself why I'm here...what my goals are...and how this is helping me--and remind myself daily that this energy here is what will propel me into action. So many things lay on my mind right now...and yet all I know how to do is just move on...because there's nothing else I CAN do. As tomorrow starts a very big day for me with this wonderful day job that will pay my bills, give me performing flexibility, and in general just help me adjust...I can't help but feel in the back of my mind like tomorrow is my first day of school. Yes somehow right now it just doesn't matter--it's all in motion and I just have to ride the wave.
XO