i'm tired. and i'm goign to bed early tonight.
-justin
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Monday, October 29, 2007
An overwhelming day
There is such a flux of energy in this city. I'm beginning to settle into it more and more each day. Days like today drive me nuts and seriously make me want to pull my hair out. Mandy and I went to a broker today (in the city this is someone who acts basically as a real estate agent and finds you an apartment). We decided this would be best because we have our hearts set on living in Astoria-which we love for many reasons. Primarily everything you could need is in this little burrough...it's less expensive than Manhattan, and it's a VERY quick subway ride into midtown manhattan. We also wanted to go through a broker because the prospect of not doing so has just appeared glim over the past few days and we also are about to be engulfed 100% in work for a while (as I start a kick ass day job tomorrow).
Needless to say we love the brokers and we enjoyed our day but the flux of this and that and all of the variables is exhausting. We found an apartment that we really liked...I mean this will be perfect. It's a three bedroom (we have someone else coming too) and it's in the middle of renovation which means we get all new stuff...PLUS it's a kick ass price that we totally can do. But of course the money needed to be shelled out initially to get in is a huge amount. So that is stressful in itself...and the apartment if we get it may not be available for another 2-3 weeks--which is stressful too because we feel bad continuing to stay with our amazing friends. So as we continue to wait to see if this will all pull through...I'm reminded that New York City constantly forces you to take ONE MOMENT AT A TIME...ONE DAY AT A TIME...and to ALWAYS keep perspection and stay in motion. By perspective I have to continually remind myself why I'm here...what my goals are...and how this is helping me--and remind myself daily that this energy here is what will propel me into action. So many things lay on my mind right now...and yet all I know how to do is just move on...because there's nothing else I CAN do. As tomorrow starts a very big day for me with this wonderful day job that will pay my bills, give me performing flexibility, and in general just help me adjust...I can't help but feel in the back of my mind like tomorrow is my first day of school. Yes somehow right now it just doesn't matter--it's all in motion and I just have to ride the wave.
XO
Needless to say we love the brokers and we enjoyed our day but the flux of this and that and all of the variables is exhausting. We found an apartment that we really liked...I mean this will be perfect. It's a three bedroom (we have someone else coming too) and it's in the middle of renovation which means we get all new stuff...PLUS it's a kick ass price that we totally can do. But of course the money needed to be shelled out initially to get in is a huge amount. So that is stressful in itself...and the apartment if we get it may not be available for another 2-3 weeks--which is stressful too because we feel bad continuing to stay with our amazing friends. So as we continue to wait to see if this will all pull through...I'm reminded that New York City constantly forces you to take ONE MOMENT AT A TIME...ONE DAY AT A TIME...and to ALWAYS keep perspection and stay in motion. By perspective I have to continually remind myself why I'm here...what my goals are...and how this is helping me--and remind myself daily that this energy here is what will propel me into action. So many things lay on my mind right now...and yet all I know how to do is just move on...because there's nothing else I CAN do. As tomorrow starts a very big day for me with this wonderful day job that will pay my bills, give me performing flexibility, and in general just help me adjust...I can't help but feel in the back of my mind like tomorrow is my first day of school. Yes somehow right now it just doesn't matter--it's all in motion and I just have to ride the wave.
XO
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Bitch & Hoe
After reading my blog this evening I must clear up a mistake I put in my latest survey...my dearest wife Roseanna has assured me, and I now remember and can verify, that indeed the correct response to the question: "Been called a slut/hoe or bitch lately?" would be "YES!" Because indeed I am verbally abused by the love of my life on a daily basis with the names SLUT, HOE, HOE BAG, DOUCHE, and often BITCH! Yet I remain forever engaged in one of the most amazing relationships of my life.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
100 Truths
001. Real name → Justin
002. Nickname →Jay
003. Status → content
004. Zodiac sign →Aquarius
005. Male or female →male
006. Elementay - ritchey/dillon
007. Middle School →duncan falls junior high
008. High school →philo high
009. College → bgsu
010. Hair color → blonde
011. Long or short →medium and growing
012. Favorite Color →hunter green
013. Favorite Scent →home
014. Favorite animal → dog
015. Are you health freak → balance
016. Height → 5'11
017. Do you have a crush on someone →superficial-no.
018. Are you in love →I know what it feels like.
019. Piercings→ ear
020. Tattoos → one
021. Righty or lefty → righty
022. Innie or outtie belly button → innie
FIRSTS :
023. First piercing → ear
024. First best friend → Bobby
025. First award → writing a story about humpdy dumpdy in kindergarden.
026. First sport you joined → baseball
027. First pet → dog-muffins
028. First big vacation → nashville
029. First concert → can't remember
030. First crush → Abby Williams in first grade
LASTS:
031. Phone call →Kyle
032. Drive→ ehhh it's been a while.
033. Visit to the mall → Macy's today with Em and Burlington Coat Factory.
034. Person to visit you→ Met up with Josh yesterday.
035. Person to hold hands with→ Chris
036. Kiss → Chris
037. Convo → Em
038. Website you visited → myspace
039. song listened to →Lets fall in love
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating-->full.
050. Drinking → vodka tonic
051. Touching → Key board
052. I'm about to → watch a movie
053. Listening to →Em reading out of Cosmo.
054. Thinking → About too many things.
055. Waiting for → Tuesday.
YOUR FUTURE :
056. Car → someone driving me around.
057. Pets → big lab.
058. Want kids? → yes
059. Want to get married? → yes
060. Careers in mind → opera singer
WHICH IS BETTER ? :
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
069. Hugs or kisses → both
070. Shorter or taller → shorter
071. Blonde or Dark Hair →blonde
072. Romantic or spontaneous → a romanticly spontaneous person
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → nice arms
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Personality or looks →Personality
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger → Yes
079. Drank bubbles → no
080. Lost glasses/contacts --> yes
081. Ran away from home → no
082. Beaten anyone up → no
083. Kissed someone of the same sex → yes
084. Broken someone's heart → I don't think so.
085. Been arrested → no
086. Been hospitalized → yes
087. Cried when someone died→ Yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
088. Karma → Yeah
089. Yourself →most of the time
090. Miracles → oh yes
091. Love at first sight ->possible
092. Heaven →yes
093. Santa clause → of course
094. Sex on the first date → depends on how much is drank and how good the date goes and if it will go any further.
095. Kiss on the first date → yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
096. Do you believe in soul mates → Yes
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now→ of course
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life→ getting there
099. Do you believe in God→ yes
100. Post as 100 truths→
002. Nickname →Jay
003. Status → content
004. Zodiac sign →Aquarius
005. Male or female →male
006. Elementay - ritchey/dillon
007. Middle School →duncan falls junior high
008. High school →philo high
009. College → bgsu
010. Hair color → blonde
011. Long or short →medium and growing
012. Favorite Color →hunter green
013. Favorite Scent →home
014. Favorite animal → dog
015. Are you health freak → balance
016. Height → 5'11
017. Do you have a crush on someone →superficial-no.
018. Are you in love →I know what it feels like.
019. Piercings→ ear
020. Tattoos → one
021. Righty or lefty → righty
022. Innie or outtie belly button → innie
FIRSTS :
023. First piercing → ear
024. First best friend → Bobby
025. First award → writing a story about humpdy dumpdy in kindergarden.
026. First sport you joined → baseball
027. First pet → dog-muffins
028. First big vacation → nashville
029. First concert → can't remember
030. First crush → Abby Williams in first grade
LASTS:
031. Phone call →Kyle
032. Drive→ ehhh it's been a while.
033. Visit to the mall → Macy's today with Em and Burlington Coat Factory.
034. Person to visit you→ Met up with Josh yesterday.
035. Person to hold hands with→ Chris
036. Kiss → Chris
037. Convo → Em
038. Website you visited → myspace
039. song listened to →Lets fall in love
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating-->full.
050. Drinking → vodka tonic
051. Touching → Key board
052. I'm about to → watch a movie
053. Listening to →Em reading out of Cosmo.
054. Thinking → About too many things.
055. Waiting for → Tuesday.
YOUR FUTURE :
056. Car → someone driving me around.
057. Pets → big lab.
058. Want kids? → yes
059. Want to get married? → yes
060. Careers in mind → opera singer
WHICH IS BETTER ? :
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
069. Hugs or kisses → both
070. Shorter or taller → shorter
071. Blonde or Dark Hair →blonde
072. Romantic or spontaneous → a romanticly spontaneous person
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → nice arms
074. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Personality or looks →Personality
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER :
078. Kissed a stranger → Yes
079. Drank bubbles → no
080. Lost glasses/contacts --> yes
081. Ran away from home → no
082. Beaten anyone up → no
083. Kissed someone of the same sex → yes
084. Broken someone's heart → I don't think so.
085. Been arrested → no
086. Been hospitalized → yes
087. Cried when someone died→ Yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
088. Karma → Yeah
089. Yourself →most of the time
090. Miracles → oh yes
091. Love at first sight ->possible
092. Heaven →yes
093. Santa clause → of course
094. Sex on the first date → depends on how much is drank and how good the date goes and if it will go any further.
095. Kiss on the first date → yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
096. Do you believe in soul mates → Yes
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now→ of course
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life→ getting there
099. Do you believe in God→ yes
100. Post as 100 truths→
Friday, October 26, 2007
69 more
1. What's one thing that's heavily weighing on your mind?
money and work
2. What's one thing you've learned from a good friendship gone bad?
never put anyone on a pedastool
3. What's one thing you've learned lately from love?
love is open and love communicates deeply and as frequently as possible-love has few expectations.
4. Is there anyone special in your life in general at the moment?
not really
6. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
no-I wouldn't change anything.
7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
the girls
8. Are you an emotional person?
oh yes I have been lately.
9. Are you self conscious?
sometimes
10. Do you think of others before yourself?
I used to way too much. There's a balance.
11. What's something that can always make you feel better?
comfort food, and talking to my parents.
12. Last person you had a crush on?
The guy sitting by me on the subway ride last night. :)
13. Where do you see yourself this time next year?
content and at the line completely ready to go.
14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I have in the past.
15. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
my family and closest friends.
16. Is there something that you're waiting for?
always
17. One thing you're not looking forward to?
several things
18. How do you feel about change?
I'm more stubborn than I thought-but change is good.
19. What are you most looking forward to?
many things
20. What are your plans for your next birthday?
mmmm I would hope a big ass party in the city.
21. Do you even care about your birthday?
not really it's just all going up.
22. Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?
yes
23. When do you think the world will end?
when it's time.
24. What's the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
prolly my suit.
25. What car do you have right now?
I dont' have one! thankfully I don't need one.
26. Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
haha yeah
27. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yes
28. What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid?
flinstones.
30. Did you get any compliments today?
yes at work I did on my speaking voice-which was great since I've been working on it.
31. Are you friends with your neighbors?
no
32. What were you just thinking about?
Rocky and Bowinkle (see number 30)--ONLY one person will understand that if she reads this. :)
33. Name the places you have lived in?
Newark, Zanesville, Bowling Green, Findlay, New York City.
34. When was the last time you drove more than 15 minutes?
two weeks ago
35. Have ever had a crush on your friends brother/sister?
nope
36. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
damn ur hair is getting long--dont give up!
37. When is the next time you will make out with somebody?
?
38. What's a word that rhymes with "LUCK"?
fuck
39. What's your favorite planet?
uranus
40. Who's the 2nd person on your missed calls list?
zen realty.
41. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
di provenza from traviata
42. What shirt are you wearing right now?
long sleeve red old navy t.
44. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
no shoes
45. Bright or dark room?
bright...duane reade is awake late.
46. What do you think about the person who last took this survey?
adorable
47. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep in?
push them together.
48. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping
49. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
it was great running into you again-safe ride back on the nw line. xo
50. What just so happens to be the best song in the world?
Count Your Blessings-Irving Berlin...actually most of Berlin's songs are perfect.
51. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot?
"damnit"
52. Who told you he/she loved you last?
My mom.
53. Last furry thing you touched?
my blanket
54. How many drugs have you done in the past 3 days?
just vitamins...
56. Do you have any film that needs to be developed?
digital age now
57. Favorite age you have been so far?
22
58. Hats or beanies?
hats
59. Your worst enemy?
all of the damn greek food vendors on the street in astoria...every day it's like being tempted by satan to get a gyro.
60. What is your current desktop picture?
drunken night in italy
61. What is the last thing you said to someone?
get some sleep
62. Do you love someone?
many people
63. Last song you listened to?
Don Carlos duet
64. If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot at, what would you say?
"I love you and I will be with you the entire time..."
65. Do you do the games in the ads on myspace?
no
66. What are your favorite PJ's?
my sweats
67. What do you do when you pass graveyards?
look
68. Have you ever seen a shooting star?
yeah
69. How old do you think you'll live to be?
until I'm old
money and work
2. What's one thing you've learned from a good friendship gone bad?
never put anyone on a pedastool
3. What's one thing you've learned lately from love?
love is open and love communicates deeply and as frequently as possible-love has few expectations.
4. Is there anyone special in your life in general at the moment?
not really
6. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
no-I wouldn't change anything.
7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
the girls
8. Are you an emotional person?
oh yes I have been lately.
9. Are you self conscious?
sometimes
10. Do you think of others before yourself?
I used to way too much. There's a balance.
11. What's something that can always make you feel better?
comfort food, and talking to my parents.
12. Last person you had a crush on?
The guy sitting by me on the subway ride last night. :)
13. Where do you see yourself this time next year?
content and at the line completely ready to go.
14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I have in the past.
15. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
my family and closest friends.
16. Is there something that you're waiting for?
always
17. One thing you're not looking forward to?
several things
18. How do you feel about change?
I'm more stubborn than I thought-but change is good.
19. What are you most looking forward to?
many things
20. What are your plans for your next birthday?
mmmm I would hope a big ass party in the city.
21. Do you even care about your birthday?
not really it's just all going up.
22. Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?
yes
23. When do you think the world will end?
when it's time.
24. What's the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
prolly my suit.
25. What car do you have right now?
I dont' have one! thankfully I don't need one.
26. Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
haha yeah
27. Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
yes
28. What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid?
flinstones.
30. Did you get any compliments today?
yes at work I did on my speaking voice-which was great since I've been working on it.
31. Are you friends with your neighbors?
no
32. What were you just thinking about?
Rocky and Bowinkle (see number 30)--ONLY one person will understand that if she reads this. :)
33. Name the places you have lived in?
Newark, Zanesville, Bowling Green, Findlay, New York City.
34. When was the last time you drove more than 15 minutes?
two weeks ago
35. Have ever had a crush on your friends brother/sister?
nope
36. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
damn ur hair is getting long--dont give up!
37. When is the next time you will make out with somebody?
?
38. What's a word that rhymes with "LUCK"?
fuck
39. What's your favorite planet?
uranus
40. Who's the 2nd person on your missed calls list?
zen realty.
41. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
di provenza from traviata
42. What shirt are you wearing right now?
long sleeve red old navy t.
44. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
no shoes
45. Bright or dark room?
bright...duane reade is awake late.
46. What do you think about the person who last took this survey?
adorable
47. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep in?
push them together.
48. What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping
49. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
it was great running into you again-safe ride back on the nw line. xo
50. What just so happens to be the best song in the world?
Count Your Blessings-Irving Berlin...actually most of Berlin's songs are perfect.
51. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot?
"damnit"
52. Who told you he/she loved you last?
My mom.
53. Last furry thing you touched?
my blanket
54. How many drugs have you done in the past 3 days?
just vitamins...
56. Do you have any film that needs to be developed?
digital age now
57. Favorite age you have been so far?
22
58. Hats or beanies?
hats
59. Your worst enemy?
all of the damn greek food vendors on the street in astoria...every day it's like being tempted by satan to get a gyro.
60. What is your current desktop picture?
drunken night in italy
61. What is the last thing you said to someone?
get some sleep
62. Do you love someone?
many people
63. Last song you listened to?
Don Carlos duet
64. If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot at, what would you say?
"I love you and I will be with you the entire time..."
65. Do you do the games in the ads on myspace?
no
66. What are your favorite PJ's?
my sweats
67. What do you do when you pass graveyards?
look
68. Have you ever seen a shooting star?
yeah
69. How old do you think you'll live to be?
until I'm old
69
69 Things You May Not Have Known About Me...
1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
stella
2. what color are your eyes?
blue
3. Who took this survey before you?
Paul
4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Paul
5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
August
6. Are you happy?
yes
7. Where was the last place you went shopping?
astoria bakery
8. Last time you had poison ivy/oak/sumac?
dont get it
9.Ever gone skinny dipping?
yes
10. Plans for tonight?
on friday? meeting up with Josh at some point and relaxin.
11. Plans for tomorrow?
saturday? opera...
12. Who was your last kiss?
my daily evening kiss with the wife
13. Ever experienced heartbreak?
yes
15. Can you cook?
yes
16. Last person you saw?
em and ro
17. Who was the last person to call you?
Paul
18. What's your sign?
aquarius
19. Where do you spend most of your money?
bills
20. Where does most of your family live?
Pennsylvania
21. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
one older sister and 2 step sisters
22. Been called a hoe/slut lately?
uhhhh no
23. Ever been called a bitch?
ha yeah
24. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
no
25. Do you collect anything?
not at the moment
26. Myspace or Facebook?
ehhh dunno
27. Do you have T-mobile?
verizon
28. Last time you saw your parents?
two weeks ago
29. Ever been to a wedding?
yes
30. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
several
31. Did you take a nap today?
no
32. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
9
33. Do you support the troops?
totally...not the war but I support the troops.
34. Could you handle being in the military?
prolly not
35. Are you hungry or thirsty?
hungry
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
wendy's...but i dont eat it anymore
37. Do you ?
I don't understand this
38. Ever had to take a sobriety test?
yes
39. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
i walk everywhere that's my work out for now
40. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?
used to
41. Last place you were at?
NYC Opera
42. What is your current wish?
money and my things in my own adorable apartment
43. Where do you wish you were right now?
skiing
44. Do you have any regrets?
no
45. How old are your parents?
in their early and mid fifties
46. Favorite place to be?
In my mom's tv room-it smells of comfort and I just feel the world is perfect in there.
47. Favorite sit down restaurant?
Ad's at home. So far here I adore Vinyl...
48. How is the weather today?
cold but better than it has been.
50. Do you e-mail?
Yep
51. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
a card from a very dear friend I love in Ohio.
53. Are you dating someone right now?
no.
54. Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious:
oh julie I love thee
55. Do you drunk dial?
I have on occasion. ;-)
56. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
ripped it apart in the middle of the night while sleeping...it was ringing and i was angry so I ripped it apart w/o really knwing what i was doing.
57. Do you like Dane Cook?
ehhh yeah sometimes
58. Last time you were sick?
early sept.
59. Are you lactose intolerant or do you have IBS?
probably
60. Ready for the weekend?
sure
61. What did you do last night?
worked came home and vedged with the girls.
62. Have you ever had braces?
no.
63. What's your favorite type of music?
opera
64. Do you pee in the shower?
no
66. Are you good at water polo?
uhhh no.
67. Do you care about the way you look?
of course
68. Do you smile too much?
no
69. Umbrella...
right now it's "The Color Purple"
1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
stella
2. what color are your eyes?
blue
3. Who took this survey before you?
Paul
4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Paul
5. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
August
6. Are you happy?
yes
7. Where was the last place you went shopping?
astoria bakery
8. Last time you had poison ivy/oak/sumac?
dont get it
9.Ever gone skinny dipping?
yes
10. Plans for tonight?
on friday? meeting up with Josh at some point and relaxin.
11. Plans for tomorrow?
saturday? opera...
12. Who was your last kiss?
my daily evening kiss with the wife
13. Ever experienced heartbreak?
yes
15. Can you cook?
yes
16. Last person you saw?
em and ro
17. Who was the last person to call you?
Paul
18. What's your sign?
aquarius
19. Where do you spend most of your money?
bills
20. Where does most of your family live?
Pennsylvania
21. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
one older sister and 2 step sisters
22. Been called a hoe/slut lately?
uhhhh no
23. Ever been called a bitch?
ha yeah
24. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies?
no
25. Do you collect anything?
not at the moment
26. Myspace or Facebook?
ehhh dunno
27. Do you have T-mobile?
verizon
28. Last time you saw your parents?
two weeks ago
29. Ever been to a wedding?
yes
30. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
several
31. Did you take a nap today?
no
32. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
9
33. Do you support the troops?
totally...not the war but I support the troops.
34. Could you handle being in the military?
prolly not
35. Are you hungry or thirsty?
hungry
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
wendy's...but i dont eat it anymore
37. Do you ?
I don't understand this
38. Ever had to take a sobriety test?
yes
39. Last time you went to the gym or worked out?
i walk everywhere that's my work out for now
40. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?
used to
41. Last place you were at?
NYC Opera
42. What is your current wish?
money and my things in my own adorable apartment
43. Where do you wish you were right now?
skiing
44. Do you have any regrets?
no
45. How old are your parents?
in their early and mid fifties
46. Favorite place to be?
In my mom's tv room-it smells of comfort and I just feel the world is perfect in there.
47. Favorite sit down restaurant?
Ad's at home. So far here I adore Vinyl...
48. How is the weather today?
cold but better than it has been.
50. Do you e-mail?
Yep
51. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
a card from a very dear friend I love in Ohio.
53. Are you dating someone right now?
no.
54. Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious:
oh julie I love thee
55. Do you drunk dial?
I have on occasion. ;-)
56. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
ripped it apart in the middle of the night while sleeping...it was ringing and i was angry so I ripped it apart w/o really knwing what i was doing.
57. Do you like Dane Cook?
ehhh yeah sometimes
58. Last time you were sick?
early sept.
59. Are you lactose intolerant or do you have IBS?
probably
60. Ready for the weekend?
sure
61. What did you do last night?
worked came home and vedged with the girls.
62. Have you ever had braces?
no.
63. What's your favorite type of music?
opera
64. Do you pee in the shower?
no
66. Are you good at water polo?
uhhh no.
67. Do you care about the way you look?
of course
68. Do you smile too much?
no
69. Umbrella...
right now it's "The Color Purple"
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Broken eye
Today my dear future roomate Mandy was meeting me on the corner in front of Duane Reade. I noticed she had something on her eye. She got injured at work. And while the people she worked with were sweet about it the people she was waiting on in the restaurant were assholes and complained that they had to wait a long time for their drinks. I don't understand this insensitivity that has become way too common-not just in a big city-but everywhere! Perhaps it's just that I feel I have amazing empathy for other people, maybe it's a downfall, but I believe the problem with people so often is that they're lacking in this. Though the class system in the country isn't really so great of a thing to say anymore--we still have it. I'm beginning to notice it more and more. It's the little things that people do sometimes that makes me stop and smile.
Though I frequently find myself in this unusual rush here in the city to get to where I'm going I generally find that strange appreciation, as frustrated as it may make me, for the older guy or younger couple who is going their own pace regardless of how fast other people are moving around them. I admire this sometimes, and though it can be irritating when I need to actually get somewhere and am panicking when I'm worried I'll be late-it's kind of a nice to see the way people just do their own thing. I've decided to not move at this break neck speed anymore, and rather than rush through the day yesterday to an important interview I decided I would make sure I got to E. 42nd and Park Ave. at least 25 mins. early and if I did that I would treat myself to a stop at Starbucks for an espresso before the interview. Of course I'm directionally challenged and the 25 minutes turned into 10 after getting off a stop too soon. So I treated myself to my fav. diner which is across from Carnegie Hall.
It's also the little things about the city that I love when talking to people who have lived here forever...we seem to get it into our heads that this place is so foreign, so different, so crazy...well yes I admit in so many ways it's all that and much more--but hearing people talk about how they just adored this movie they watched on AMC last night, or how the roses in this shop were so gorgeous, or how they were so happy to hear from their grandparents in Long Island just makes me smile. Realizing again that we are all from the same kind of thread.
A deep conversation happened tonight working the opera about different films and their impact on society...about different actors...and went so far as to the different stagings of a certain opera and how people had perceived it. Some of these conversations came from people who really weren't performers at all-writers, designers, and just ordinary people. What was extraordinary to me was that some people have truly dedicated themselves to the arts in some way. I find this refreshing and it's amazing to feel enriched by something so powerful. I sit in the opera and see business men and ladies who seem to go simply for the spectacle, the show, the drinks, and just the social "elitism" of it all. This is when I sit there alone and realize just how lucky I am and how blessed I feel to be a part of something so extraordinary in life---ART. We are servants of something so great and so much bigger than us. This is amazing to me and I relish in the fact that this feeds me. Even though we can be financially poor, not have all the material things desired, etc...we are the richest people in the world in so many ways. I would choose this life over any other. I'm reminded by God every day to remember this period of my life always, to never forget what I'm going through, how I feel, the pain I feel, the happiness I feel, the joy, the anger, the loneliness, etc, etc. I am reminded by him to never lose this hunger...when my cup is full in so many other ways I am reminded to always look back on this and have it close to my heart. Wherever I may be in ten years this part of my life will always be with me. I listened to Clair de Lune last night as I fell asleep...this may be redundant to some people but this piece still gives me chills and is something new for me each time I hear it. As I fell asleep I was reminded just how powerful music can be...
Though I frequently find myself in this unusual rush here in the city to get to where I'm going I generally find that strange appreciation, as frustrated as it may make me, for the older guy or younger couple who is going their own pace regardless of how fast other people are moving around them. I admire this sometimes, and though it can be irritating when I need to actually get somewhere and am panicking when I'm worried I'll be late-it's kind of a nice to see the way people just do their own thing. I've decided to not move at this break neck speed anymore, and rather than rush through the day yesterday to an important interview I decided I would make sure I got to E. 42nd and Park Ave. at least 25 mins. early and if I did that I would treat myself to a stop at Starbucks for an espresso before the interview. Of course I'm directionally challenged and the 25 minutes turned into 10 after getting off a stop too soon. So I treated myself to my fav. diner which is across from Carnegie Hall.
It's also the little things about the city that I love when talking to people who have lived here forever...we seem to get it into our heads that this place is so foreign, so different, so crazy...well yes I admit in so many ways it's all that and much more--but hearing people talk about how they just adored this movie they watched on AMC last night, or how the roses in this shop were so gorgeous, or how they were so happy to hear from their grandparents in Long Island just makes me smile. Realizing again that we are all from the same kind of thread.
A deep conversation happened tonight working the opera about different films and their impact on society...about different actors...and went so far as to the different stagings of a certain opera and how people had perceived it. Some of these conversations came from people who really weren't performers at all-writers, designers, and just ordinary people. What was extraordinary to me was that some people have truly dedicated themselves to the arts in some way. I find this refreshing and it's amazing to feel enriched by something so powerful. I sit in the opera and see business men and ladies who seem to go simply for the spectacle, the show, the drinks, and just the social "elitism" of it all. This is when I sit there alone and realize just how lucky I am and how blessed I feel to be a part of something so extraordinary in life---ART. We are servants of something so great and so much bigger than us. This is amazing to me and I relish in the fact that this feeds me. Even though we can be financially poor, not have all the material things desired, etc...we are the richest people in the world in so many ways. I would choose this life over any other. I'm reminded by God every day to remember this period of my life always, to never forget what I'm going through, how I feel, the pain I feel, the happiness I feel, the joy, the anger, the loneliness, etc, etc. I am reminded by him to never lose this hunger...when my cup is full in so many other ways I am reminded to always look back on this and have it close to my heart. Wherever I may be in ten years this part of my life will always be with me. I listened to Clair de Lune last night as I fell asleep...this may be redundant to some people but this piece still gives me chills and is something new for me each time I hear it. As I fell asleep I was reminded just how powerful music can be...
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Small
I don't know if it's me getting older or what...
but I'm realizing each day just how small this world actually is.
Perhaps it's that I'm beginning to gain some sense of routine here...
perhaps seeing some of the same familiar strange faces on 7th as I walk to NYC Opera each evening...the starbucks people now know what I want around Park and 3rd.
Today at a final interview the first words spoken to me by the president of a major business were..."so you went to BG?...I've been there..." Crazy, eh? Just reminds me of how small this place can be...here I am sitting on the 12th floor of this building in the middle of Park and 3rd in east midtown and I meet someone who knows BG. It may not sound like that big of a deal-but to me it's an interesting example of serendipity because as I was sitting waiting for this person I had the strange thought come into my head that someone in this company knew where I came from, and how fun that would be. The laws of attraction baby!
The city in some ways is becoming smaller to me-which is not a bad thing. Believe me it's still crazy and confusing at times but I'm learning. I'm learnning mostly to stay true to yourself...listen to what the inside of you is saying...be open...and always keep your dreams in front of you. It can feel very lonely here at times...but that can also be empowering.
Enough for now...
but I'm realizing each day just how small this world actually is.
Perhaps it's that I'm beginning to gain some sense of routine here...
perhaps seeing some of the same familiar strange faces on 7th as I walk to NYC Opera each evening...the starbucks people now know what I want around Park and 3rd.
Today at a final interview the first words spoken to me by the president of a major business were..."so you went to BG?...I've been there..." Crazy, eh? Just reminds me of how small this place can be...here I am sitting on the 12th floor of this building in the middle of Park and 3rd in east midtown and I meet someone who knows BG. It may not sound like that big of a deal-but to me it's an interesting example of serendipity because as I was sitting waiting for this person I had the strange thought come into my head that someone in this company knew where I came from, and how fun that would be. The laws of attraction baby!
The city in some ways is becoming smaller to me-which is not a bad thing. Believe me it's still crazy and confusing at times but I'm learning. I'm learnning mostly to stay true to yourself...listen to what the inside of you is saying...be open...and always keep your dreams in front of you. It can feel very lonely here at times...but that can also be empowering.
Enough for now...
Friday, October 19, 2007
PJ Night
Today it's rainy and gloomy in the city.
As I sit here in the living room watching people in the gym on the second and third floor of NYC Sports Club I feel eternally guilty for sitting on my ass UNTIL...
I remember that yesterday I walked about 10 minutes each way to and from the subway and apartment about a total of eight times *about 80 minutes worth of aerobics there...not to mention the 8 minute walk I've done almost every day this week from 42nd to way down onto 37th st. AND on top of that...about 5 trips from West 42 to East 40th....and then from West 42 to East 42 on Park Ave about 4 times alone yesterday. So I do believe I deserve this evening of relaxation and rest tonight.
Tomorrw I will go to the opera--yay! And for free which makes it all that much better!
I'm still working at NYC Opera for now...it's a job--definitely not where I'm wanting to end up...but it helps a bit right now. I had three interviews yesterday and have the final one for what could be a great and perfect day job on Tuesday. I will be keeping my fingers crossed on this one.
In the meantime still pluggin away at the city...learning the ropes...trying not to spend too much money...being open...and just starting to get a bit more settled.
I'm still very wide open...
Peace-
Justin
As I sit here in the living room watching people in the gym on the second and third floor of NYC Sports Club I feel eternally guilty for sitting on my ass UNTIL...
I remember that yesterday I walked about 10 minutes each way to and from the subway and apartment about a total of eight times *about 80 minutes worth of aerobics there...not to mention the 8 minute walk I've done almost every day this week from 42nd to way down onto 37th st. AND on top of that...about 5 trips from West 42 to East 40th....and then from West 42 to East 42 on Park Ave about 4 times alone yesterday. So I do believe I deserve this evening of relaxation and rest tonight.
Tomorrw I will go to the opera--yay! And for free which makes it all that much better!
I'm still working at NYC Opera for now...it's a job--definitely not where I'm wanting to end up...but it helps a bit right now. I had three interviews yesterday and have the final one for what could be a great and perfect day job on Tuesday. I will be keeping my fingers crossed on this one.
In the meantime still pluggin away at the city...learning the ropes...trying not to spend too much money...being open...and just starting to get a bit more settled.
I'm still very wide open...
Peace-
Justin
Now I Understand
Now I understand the hurtful nature behind someone not returning phone calls or maintaining correspondance and telling you they will.
Regardless of how busy a schedule is...there's always some time.
Oh well...I suppose "flake" would actually be appropriate.
-J
Regardless of how busy a schedule is...there's always some time.
Oh well...I suppose "flake" would actually be appropriate.
-J
NYC.
Back in NYC...
fist day shaky for many reasons...
wonderful after.
Starting to fit in.
Working at NYC OPera...
no not as a singer-YET...
I'm an evening bitch. But hey how many people can say they work for NYC Opera?
A couple of great interviews.
Realizing what I'm supposed to do with my life...
what I'm meant to do.
The engery comes to me...
I'm loving it more and more each day.
Sad to not hear some familiar voices as often as before.
Now is the land of new.
More later...
NYC Opera in the morning
evenign of?? ahead?
Sunday in Brooklyn with the girls...
who could ask for anything more?
fist day shaky for many reasons...
wonderful after.
Starting to fit in.
Working at NYC OPera...
no not as a singer-YET...
I'm an evening bitch. But hey how many people can say they work for NYC Opera?
A couple of great interviews.
Realizing what I'm supposed to do with my life...
what I'm meant to do.
The engery comes to me...
I'm loving it more and more each day.
Sad to not hear some familiar voices as often as before.
Now is the land of new.
More later...
NYC Opera in the morning
evenign of?? ahead?
Sunday in Brooklyn with the girls...
who could ask for anything more?
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Spargi d'amaro
All right...so I haven't seen this live yet...hopefully soon once I'm back in the swing of it. BUT from what I've heard Ms. Dessay's performance as Lucia was unbelievable. Of course I haven't heard her sing the entire role-BUT as an admirer of Ms. Dessay I must say she is a phenomenal artist! I have heard her live before and at the MET. You see this tiny little French lady come onstage and the sound is unbelievable that comes out of her! I was equally impressed after hearing her interview with Charlie Rose the other evening. Some things that I thought were interesting and made me love her even more from her interview were the following:
1) She was an actress and her desire was to be an actress before being a singer. I think this is evident in all that she does. She makes very strong choices within any kind of colorature that she does--it MEANS something...and not only that but it sounds damn good.
2) As a French singer she admitted that the French school of singing has a bad reputation and that it was rightly so. Pretty good point...even though I love the French.
3) She referred to a lot the stuff happening in the major companies right now as "broadwayish" and she pretty much said how she detested it. Totally enjoyed this...it raises an interesting point from someone who is a rather progressive type of singer. From my gathering she believes we have tried to put it out there way too much and tried to sink to a lower level by essentially making it more about the choreography, scenery, costumes, etc. Of course there are many wonderful and amazing things that go into opera and that make opera opera....lets face it it's just big. But I think what she was after was a more minimalistic approach...after all isn't that why a lot of people don't really "dig" opera because everything isn't immediately retrievable? We're in such a culture of "gimme gimme gimme" without having to work for anything. Of course it sounds like she thinks we shouldn't give a damn and should do what was intended-kind of have to say that I agree.
4) She was asked who she believed to be the greatest opera actor/singer lived...she gave no hesitation in saying Maria Callas. This could be a debate to go on for years...and she admitted that Callas' voice was not the best...but it was damn good and that she appreciated her for that-Callas was like no one else. Take what you will...we all have different tastes I suppose.
5) When asked about her two vocal surgeries she had no shame in saying that she had them and that other singers shouldn't be embarrassed...she admitted to being way too tired...but she was happy she was able to work so hard and that she does work hard. Pretty optomistic view on something kind of scary.
Anyways...the mad scene can be found all over the place on youtube from the recent MET performance. A lot of people are trashing her performance...take a look (above) and see what you think. Also I have posted (below)a clip from the Charlie Rose interview. PLEASE COMMENT! :)
Sea Water
Tonight I can't help but think of you...
me watching you as you fall asleep
the soft comforter rests lightly on you
the large pillows underneath your head
your bedside lamp is still lit
mine is out.
I hesitate to reach over you to turn it off
not wanting to wake you.
"I'm in London tomorrow"
this was your last phrase.
You continue to drift peacefully
My mind roams through the house
four floors we have created
the sea is near
the dog is sleeping in front of the fridge
as always.
The breeze comes through the window
fall is here.
I still smell the sea
hearing the birds screaming.
I view the photo books of my mind
past lovers
out of touch friends
experiences
small apartments
penny pinching
searching
and dreaming.
I got out of the car tonight from the airport
you were in the kitchen
I stared at you
-perfection.
I pet the dog slowly...
I turn the corner into the office
no mail?
nothing seems to be happening in the world.
I walk into the room
a wall full of signed posters
memorabillia
books
scores
a grand piano.
photos in front of me.
I light some candles
pull out a lemon drop from the jar atop the piano
I effortlessly sing-
yes it's still there
three weeks worth of art
I'm tired.
You make a nice dinner
Unable to stop staring at you I laugh
my awkward laugh.
A long bath awaits
you join me
we make love all night
music of our choice this time.
now I sit here
my life?
yes.
This is ours
our experience
two souls
brought together through time.
I see it clearly:
the house, the car, the dog, the piano, the pictures, the yard
I can even smell the sea air.
Unable to see you now
I stop searching.
The dream continues to grow
a picture here a picture there
a piece of furniture one day
a dish the next.
Building from a new foundation.
I will remember this
when I sit on that bed
you asleep
I ponder
I will always remember
very clearly-
this moment.
me watching you as you fall asleep
the soft comforter rests lightly on you
the large pillows underneath your head
your bedside lamp is still lit
mine is out.
I hesitate to reach over you to turn it off
not wanting to wake you.
"I'm in London tomorrow"
this was your last phrase.
You continue to drift peacefully
My mind roams through the house
four floors we have created
the sea is near
the dog is sleeping in front of the fridge
as always.
The breeze comes through the window
fall is here.
I still smell the sea
hearing the birds screaming.
I view the photo books of my mind
past lovers
out of touch friends
experiences
small apartments
penny pinching
searching
and dreaming.
I got out of the car tonight from the airport
you were in the kitchen
I stared at you
-perfection.
I pet the dog slowly...
I turn the corner into the office
no mail?
nothing seems to be happening in the world.
I walk into the room
a wall full of signed posters
memorabillia
books
scores
a grand piano.
photos in front of me.
I light some candles
pull out a lemon drop from the jar atop the piano
I effortlessly sing-
yes it's still there
three weeks worth of art
I'm tired.
You make a nice dinner
Unable to stop staring at you I laugh
my awkward laugh.
A long bath awaits
you join me
we make love all night
music of our choice this time.
now I sit here
my life?
yes.
This is ours
our experience
two souls
brought together through time.
I see it clearly:
the house, the car, the dog, the piano, the pictures, the yard
I can even smell the sea air.
Unable to see you now
I stop searching.
The dream continues to grow
a picture here a picture there
a piece of furniture one day
a dish the next.
Building from a new foundation.
I will remember this
when I sit on that bed
you asleep
I ponder
I will always remember
very clearly-
this moment.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Time heals everything
Time is really healing.
I stepped away quickly
from a life I'd known for almost 8 years.
Familiar places
familiar faces
past friends
current friends
past lovers
past heart aches
past successes
past failures
past triumphs...
they all quickly went away as I said goodbye.
Within hours I was swept into a new world
a world of emptiness.
I found myself standing
alone
weighed down.
shorty after that I left literally everything
for a place I thought could be my escape
my escape brought everything to me.
overwhelmed I choked
I turned my back
questions flew through my mind constantly
I was lucia going mad.
I wrote
I cried
I felt the pain of an ailing person close to me.
I talked a lot.
Miraculously La Boheme came my way-
a surprising evening away from it all.
I sat there
the excitement when the music started.
The voices were inspiring
suddenly I wasn't a student sitting in an opera lit. class
suddenly I wasn't sitting in a classroom doing dications
I wasn't a student standing in a studio picking my technique apart
I wasn't this crazed academic person trying so hard to prove something.
I was there.
It suddenly came flooding back
the passion
the art
the love
the music...all in one night it came to me.
This is what I love more than anything in the world.
This is my life
THIS feeds me even when I'm poor.
I HAVE to do this.
I CAN do this.
When did I forget all of this?
Where was this lost?
those answers only I will know...
I've practiced more in the past two weeks than I have in the past year
the voice truly working and growing
connecting to myself and my body even more.
for now the negative voices of the past are disappearing
the fears are surely leaving
the inner child is emerging
and I am finally awakening.
It's a long, painful, and exciting process
thrilling.
Growing hurts.
I suddenly let go of everything
the baggage was dropped.
Worrying about who I was leaving behind
worrying about the pain and if it would ever heal
worrying if relationships and friendships would change suddenly stopped.
Waiting for the phone to ring with that picture coming up-it stopped.
My art, my life, my nurturing...this must happen.
Seeing myself through the eyes of friends
friends who truly have my best interests at heart
friends who have checked on me continuosly
love never dies
connections will be forever
memories last a lifetime.
My period of mourning is over.
It's time to move on...
face the music and dance, eh?
A credit card commercial comes on
I start to feel sad
seeing a place I have always loved
why am I not a part of it.
That energy...
as intimidating and expensive as it is
it draws me in.
Gives me life
placing ourselves in a position to be open
this is important.
Now the fears and thoughts are stopped right away.
Nothing else makes sense...
no where else in the world makes complete sense to me
Ohio will always be home
other opportunities keep bringing me back.
Creativity and life take me there.
I will arrive back in the big NYC Monday afternoon
a new, changed, enlightened, and more creative person.
The future awaits...
I will serve art and in return be rewarded.
This is what I have to do.
For all your love I thank you
this is never a goodbye...
I am back
my muse is back
and I am finally happy again for the first time in a long time.
I stepped away quickly
from a life I'd known for almost 8 years.
Familiar places
familiar faces
past friends
current friends
past lovers
past heart aches
past successes
past failures
past triumphs...
they all quickly went away as I said goodbye.
Within hours I was swept into a new world
a world of emptiness.
I found myself standing
alone
weighed down.
shorty after that I left literally everything
for a place I thought could be my escape
my escape brought everything to me.
overwhelmed I choked
I turned my back
questions flew through my mind constantly
I was lucia going mad.
I wrote
I cried
I felt the pain of an ailing person close to me.
I talked a lot.
Miraculously La Boheme came my way-
a surprising evening away from it all.
I sat there
the excitement when the music started.
The voices were inspiring
suddenly I wasn't a student sitting in an opera lit. class
suddenly I wasn't sitting in a classroom doing dications
I wasn't a student standing in a studio picking my technique apart
I wasn't this crazed academic person trying so hard to prove something.
I was there.
It suddenly came flooding back
the passion
the art
the love
the music...all in one night it came to me.
This is what I love more than anything in the world.
This is my life
THIS feeds me even when I'm poor.
I HAVE to do this.
I CAN do this.
When did I forget all of this?
Where was this lost?
those answers only I will know...
I've practiced more in the past two weeks than I have in the past year
the voice truly working and growing
connecting to myself and my body even more.
for now the negative voices of the past are disappearing
the fears are surely leaving
the inner child is emerging
and I am finally awakening.
It's a long, painful, and exciting process
thrilling.
Growing hurts.
I suddenly let go of everything
the baggage was dropped.
Worrying about who I was leaving behind
worrying about the pain and if it would ever heal
worrying if relationships and friendships would change suddenly stopped.
Waiting for the phone to ring with that picture coming up-it stopped.
My art, my life, my nurturing...this must happen.
Seeing myself through the eyes of friends
friends who truly have my best interests at heart
friends who have checked on me continuosly
love never dies
connections will be forever
memories last a lifetime.
My period of mourning is over.
It's time to move on...
face the music and dance, eh?
A credit card commercial comes on
I start to feel sad
seeing a place I have always loved
why am I not a part of it.
That energy...
as intimidating and expensive as it is
it draws me in.
Gives me life
placing ourselves in a position to be open
this is important.
Now the fears and thoughts are stopped right away.
Nothing else makes sense...
no where else in the world makes complete sense to me
Ohio will always be home
other opportunities keep bringing me back.
Creativity and life take me there.
I will arrive back in the big NYC Monday afternoon
a new, changed, enlightened, and more creative person.
The future awaits...
I will serve art and in return be rewarded.
This is what I have to do.
For all your love I thank you
this is never a goodbye...
I am back
my muse is back
and I am finally happy again for the first time in a long time.
Friday, October 5, 2007
Interesting stuff
Things have gone for bad to worse in some ways. No worries--all will look up soon. This is the first moment I have had to myself in three days. I promise to be returning calls and making several in the next two days. So with that said here I now must vent...
In my quest for a fabulous "day job" I have written in the past two months about 500 cover letters. You really want this to be your shining point where you let the employer know that you really want the job and you wanna let them know that basically your resume is great but you can do more. So...whilst writing one the other day I grew frustrated for many reasons and this is actually the one I came up with...I think it would be super appropriate to send! Who knows, maybe honesty is the best policy.
To Whom It May Concern:
Thank you for taking the time to review my materials expressing interest in the position with your yoga studio. I believe my extensive administrative experience, education, interest in yoga, and personality will make me a wonderful asset to your studio.
For the past five years I have actively maintained employment as a financial advisor while pursuing my bachelor and master's degrees. I am actively seeking employment as I am trying to bridge the gap between my education and a performance career that right now seems to be non-existent. So instead I am sending you this cover letter to show you that because I have two degrees I can fucking do your shitty little job of running your studio--trust me I'm more than qualified. But why am I wasting my time...because you probably won't want to hire me because you'll feel that you have to pay me more (which you should) because I have my masters degree. I know it's frightening, isn't it? You might actually have to pay someone more than $11 an hour to do your shit work! The only reason I am applying for this position is because my pride will not allow me the luxury of working in fast food, retail, or some other dive because simply put I have spent thousands of dollars and have created a lot of debt for myself to be at this point. Please let me know what you think, I am available for interview immediately! Please?
Sincerely,
Justin Randolph
:)
BRITNEY?
Will someone PUH LEEZZZZZZZZE help her!?! And for God's sake...I'm sick of seeing it all over the news. Who has a press conference about this shit???? This kind of shit happens all the time to people...why are we so involved in her life!?! Regardless someone needs to slap a bitch!
Ok...more sometime soon. I will be in touch with ya'll soon.
Peace
Jay
In my quest for a fabulous "day job" I have written in the past two months about 500 cover letters. You really want this to be your shining point where you let the employer know that you really want the job and you wanna let them know that basically your resume is great but you can do more. So...whilst writing one the other day I grew frustrated for many reasons and this is actually the one I came up with...I think it would be super appropriate to send! Who knows, maybe honesty is the best policy.
To Whom It May Concern:
Thank you for taking the time to review my materials expressing interest in the position with your yoga studio. I believe my extensive administrative experience, education, interest in yoga, and personality will make me a wonderful asset to your studio.
For the past five years I have actively maintained employment as a financial advisor while pursuing my bachelor and master's degrees. I am actively seeking employment as I am trying to bridge the gap between my education and a performance career that right now seems to be non-existent. So instead I am sending you this cover letter to show you that because I have two degrees I can fucking do your shitty little job of running your studio--trust me I'm more than qualified. But why am I wasting my time...because you probably won't want to hire me because you'll feel that you have to pay me more (which you should) because I have my masters degree. I know it's frightening, isn't it? You might actually have to pay someone more than $11 an hour to do your shit work! The only reason I am applying for this position is because my pride will not allow me the luxury of working in fast food, retail, or some other dive because simply put I have spent thousands of dollars and have created a lot of debt for myself to be at this point. Please let me know what you think, I am available for interview immediately! Please?
Sincerely,
Justin Randolph
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BRITNEY?
Will someone PUH LEEZZZZZZZZE help her!?! And for God's sake...I'm sick of seeing it all over the news. Who has a press conference about this shit???? This kind of shit happens all the time to people...why are we so involved in her life!?! Regardless someone needs to slap a bitch!
Ok...more sometime soon. I will be in touch with ya'll soon.
Peace
Jay
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