Angry at times

Obama is our new president-come January.  I'm thrilled-yet still frightened that as people we are expected too much-

too fast. I remain hopeful.  

53000 jobs lost at Citi Bank-

UNBELIEVABLE LOSS.

Student loans-some places aren't even doing them anymore.

These are scary times. 

I fight with my money-

try to protect it..staying on top.

No one understands the fear.

I don't understand the fear. To have nothing-it's scary.

No longer sending that out to the Universe.

Plenty-

enough-

fullness-

and wealth are what's going out now. 

Everyone needs to think that way.

The news isn't helping. 

Constantly sending the bad energy/bad things into the Universe

creates more for us.

I believe that stuff.

How does one stay calm in the midst of a storm?

These are questions I don't know the answers to.

Seeing numbers that aren't there.

Take a leap of faith.

Lots of those happening lately. 

Remembering the ones who were there...that's the important stuff.

The true friends.

There are so few these days.

I go back to Ohio...

real friends-true ones...

we don't see each other often

but it was that connection that was still present made me realize that there was nothing like them nor will there ever be.

What a great wedding.

Beautiful.

Colorful.

Full of love.

I'm tired of giving to people and not getting back-

so many things one does for someone else and to be shit upon is the worst.

I'm done. 

January starts anew...

we cut the strings

and we start fresh--letting go of the old. 

Time to grow.

Time to fly.

--J.